Ok. im going back to Thailand in May.
I will arrive on May 10th at 11pm!
Yes! Can't wait. Flights are booked.
I'm leaving with my ex host brother. He is going to travel in Thailand and countries nearby.. 3 months ! Lucky him. Wish i could do that with him tho.
Can't wait to finish my college and be free..
So what are my plans this summer ?
First of all, relaxing lol and spend time with family
Second of all, take care of my host brother as best as i can.. i love him alot!
and finally, wish Darcy would come to see me.
But who is Darcy?
The 20 year-old guy on the last page from Australia. He was in Thailand a few days ago for two weeks. He didn't sound like it much haha.. but he's coming back in May just for me..
And if it is possible.. I'm going to Australia too just for a month or two, living at his parents place.. Gonna be so nice!
ILIKEHIM.
So that's it... im a +++.
Sorry but can't help..
My life has always been so complicated. Sometimes i wonder why cant it just be normal like others'. Cant i just decide and no need to be worried about what will be later.
Getting attached with 2 contries is very damn confusing.
i want this but scared to loose that
i want that but scared to loose this
i want to do that but i should do this
i prefer doing it my way but it must always be the other way..
4th year in Canada.. i feel so tired like having all those responsibilities on my shoulders..
and no chance to put them away.. not even for a second
every step i take will affect my futur. if i make a wrong step everything will fall down
and i have to start it all over..
i want a break, a very long one. Traveling the world with lots of money and come back to the reality without lossing time.
impossible..
Sometimes i wanna turn back time to when i was 16, figthing to leave for Canada.
If i could I would stand there in front of my mum and say mum i won't leave
i will stay here with you.
Things would be much easier..
If i were in Thailand, i would be going to an international university with lots of friends, going out everyday after class and have fun with true friends
If i were in Thailand, i would have a god damn new car of the year not a Toyota Yaris 2008 that im driving now..
If i were in Thailand, my life would be less messy
If i were in Thailand, i would a farang guy and be close to my family
If i were in Thailand, i would go to Siam Paragon for a movie one time a week with my best friends.....
If i were in Thailand, eveything would be so easy to decide, no need to things of everything, apart from me, family and friends..
I miss them all.............................................................
